Creative Spanko Wench Blog

This week I completed a long three day assignment that was pretty complex and can hardly believe that I’ve gotten the whole thing written and my portion wrapped up in just one 4th day. Of course there are two levels of review to go through before I can close the book altogether, but hey, for at least a day in my life, I’m up to date.

Ahhhhhhh …. enjoying the moment.

I feel well again today too. First time since I got my blood sugars under control in March, before I got swine flu.

I haven’t been sleeping well since then … After waking up at 1 AM and giving up and staying up all the rest of the wee morning hours then dragging through work all day Monday, I was so whipped that I crashed as soon as I got home, so guess what, I was up again at 1 AM Tuesday. I couldn’t get back to sleep, so I gave up again, only this time I got up and went to work at 5 AM. I had things to do that going in that early actually made easier to accomplish so there was a bit of a blessing in that. Thank goodness for the sleep gods on Tuesday evening. I crashed again shortly after I got home, this time when I woke up just before midnight, I went pee & miraculously fell back into deep sleep almost as soon as I crawled back to bed. I surfaced again at 5 am, watched news, and hit work again at 7:30. Wednesday was kind of long, but since my body seemed to want sleep early I found myself under the covers and asleep before 10 pm (hours later than the previous two days, but as soon as my spirit moved me), so when 5 am came around again today, I was up, rested and ready to go. I watched TV, cuddled my kitties and waited for my 6:50 alarm. I got to my office too early (I don’t have a code to disable the security alarm … for clarification, my job assignments - the ones I can go to early - are all field assignments that are out of my office) so I went to breakfast, came back and got to my desk fifteen minutes early. 5:03 pm - my reports were done and I was picking up to go home. I can’t remember the last time I was able to close out my work and leave almost exactly on time in the whole time I’ve been in this job.

Again, sigh….. ahhhhhhhh … just a bit of a revel. It’ll probably be a long time before I can say this again, but hey, today is today, and it’s been a good day.

Only one thing would make it a “best day” and that would be if it could close with a bit of an ‘edgy-good-girl-but-watch-it’ spanking.

Ever want/get/give one of those kinds of spankings? A spanking that’s desired and welcomed, but just a bit harder and more than she/he was expecting because out there lingers a history of breaching the expectations that were met this time?

I have to confess that I’ve both wanted/appreciated it, and felt it was unfair/begrudged the times when I was gifted with one of those kind of spankings. To analyze the why’s of my own different reactions is a whole new post…. Ahhhh inspiration again…

p.s. (for you young’uns) the phrase “wouldn’t a pow go good now?” comes from a 1960’s end of the day or after stress brand name ‘Dow’ beer commercial that used the catch phrase “wouldn’t a Dow go good now?”

Yeah I’ve been scarce.

I’m trying to find inspiration to write spanking content, but so close on the heels of saying a spanking good by to my buddy, I’ve been less than motivated. I’m guessing that most of you friends understand that life changes impact all aspects of being including blogging. I’m working on (but not happy with) new chapters of three of the stories you guys want more of (WW, Spitfire & Spankford wives). Staying focused and motivated has been a challenge because I’m being distracted by feeling lonely and some thing I didn’t expect.

I’m battling with whether I’m supposed to walk away from the great connection I had with my buddy and dare seek someone new and a deeper sense that that would be a betrayal. I’m also missing the constant contact I had with him. I don’t miss the hours/day long calls with twenty or more interruptions because he got another call or drove through a cell reception dead zone, but I do miss the interspersed long, uninterrupted and fun talks we had that wandered all over creation and the stuff we had in common. I don’t miss the arguments we had where he one upped and had to best my every accomplishment, but I do miss him telling me he thought that I’m smart and how much he respected and depended on my smarts.

So, beyond these things that have me down … is something that has me re-directing some of my energies. I’ve drafted a precursor to a fictionalized (though based on my real experiences) novel about my life as a hospital Critical Care nurse Educator, and Quality/Risk Management Director. It’s attracted some attention and interest from two publishing houses. We’re not talking 2 - 3 hundred bucks a chapter that spanking pay sites pay, or the 25 to 100 dollar commissions I get for drawings; we’re talking, get some potentially publishable work done and we’ll pay you $XXX,XXX as an advance. Thing is I’m struggling with the ethics of writing a tell all book about what I know about healthcare and patient safety. I know both sides. I have secret knowledge of what the healthcare industry and more pointedly doctors & their hospital committees fight tooth and nail to keep hidden …

AOL published this today in an article about whether or not people could be scared to death for real. One slide stated, “you are most likely to die in an accident … car crash…” I’ve studied the reality and actually reviewed and drilled down into the statistics. Nope AOL’s claim is simply NOT true. How you got to hospital not factored in, every hour in the US, 11 people will die in hospital as a result of medical errors. The converse statistic [both published by the CDC] is that every hour in the US 5 people will die as a result of a car accident (regardless of cause).

It is more than twice as dangerous to be a hospital patient in the hands of conscientious healthcare workers, for any reason, than it is to drive the highways with the drunks, speeders and distracted teen drivers. Unbelievable, but true.

I know why healthcare is so deadly … I’ve lived it from 5 sides for almost 3 decades. I’ve been a patient, family member, nurse, analyst and leader of problem solving/practice reform teams. I must say that, in my experience, it is the rare exception to the rule that deliberate malfeasance caused any medical errors that caused serious injury, permanent disability or death, but I can say without hesitation that staff/physician lack of awareness, respect for patient safety science, and understanding and respect for the clear evidence about human factors science about the causes of error are factors in how bad outcomes occur almost 100 % of the time.

Kgwack! I hear ya ok. Get back to the fun stuff already… OK I will try.

So when will y’all get to read some substantial spanking content here? I’m workin on it … still… a week maybe more before you get an Eamon and Sheila update…. hope you’ll hang in with me… or nominate someone to spank me for being so negligent and too easily distracted as a blogger.

:) patty